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I haven't posted in a year. Allot has happened. My father-in-law died of stage four lung cancer on January 17th of last year. We sold our car only to be out of money again by September 2010. No mortgage payments have been made since September 2010 on both our primary house and our house in TN. In Jan of last year, a pipe busted in our TN house and did $40,000 worth of damages. Thank god the insurance paid and we fixed everything. We'll guess what happened again one year, almost to the day, the pipe busted again. The same guy called us that called us last year. I am disabled now and I am on disability and get $674.00 a month because I have Secondary Progressive MS. I am looking for a job (I don't know how I am going to handle) and my husband is also. I can't get the doctors to understand the pain I have. Not only in my legs, but also in my neck and my arm. I can't take morphine; I had a seizure when they tested me. There is no one out there that will hire two people in their 50's. I am getting assistance to help pay my electric bill. I don't know how much more I can take.

My husband and I used to have a successful bakery on our farm. We were forced to sell because my father-in-law wanted to retire and my brother-in-law wanted to be a big shot. They were both making 6 figure incomes. My father-in-law could have retired. My brother-in-law had mexicans doing 90% of the farm work. All he had to do is spray. He even could have taught one of them. My husband and I got up at 2:30am every day, 12 am on weekends. We were not making 6 figures, but were happy. We paid our bills on time, put our kids through school and took vacations. WE WORKED HARD!!

I really dislike my brother -in-law (almost hate). He has no job either. Drinks beer all day. His wife left him and his kids won't have any thing to do with him. His daughter thinks he has scerosis of the liver. We'll he brought it on himself, but the rest of us are paying.

We could have kept the bakery going, but we were told that that land would sell fast. As it turns out, they lost the remaining land that they did not sell and also lost the land that they purchased when they sold the first half of the farm. They were going to be big shots and develop. Took out a million loan for development costs and lost land to the bank because they could not make the $6,000 interest payments per month.

I am a 50 female with Seondary Progressive MS. I can't seem to hold down my job full time because it requires a lot of standing and I just can't handle any more.  I am working for a caterer who is running out of patience because I just can't handle standing up for a long time.  I have tried to find and office job, filling about 150 ads, no luck.  Husband goes on interview, seems good, then no luck.

I know times are hard.  I used to be able to pay bills on time.  Now, I can't pay anything.  I am behind two months now on mortgage ($3,400).  I already bailed myself out once by selling a piece of land, dirt cheap, to catch up from being foreclosed once, but right back in the same shape.

I thought that we would, by this time, both have jobs that could pay bills, but due to the economy, nothing.

I just want a job that I can handle and my husband just wants a job. I also want to be able to pay bills!  Doesn't everybody.